This is somehow both a very good and accurate representation of depression and being suicidal, and a horrible way to deal with a suicidal person. who the hell randomly leaves after doing it for the first time though i have to admit his story was really sad. almost sad enough for me to have wanted him to be suicidal rather than her. honestly if the author wants to take a go at suicidal people she needs to interview them well first. i doubt someone just suddenly decides to not die bc of some boy she met like 9 days ago. (and a shitty boy at that)

yeah i get it your mom wants you to die so you do want to die but is that really good enough to kill yourself. sorry for being insensitive to this but i think the author was just milking it atp And the plot. Oh boii, don't even get me started. My jaw was on the floor, together with my soul and litres of my tears. Honestly, I've read this book quite a while ago but I figured someone should write a review because damn.the plot didn’t revolve around it, but a major part of the story — a story about depression — was sex. it felt wrong. So let me tell you why: how the book started caught my interest. I liked Lily from the start. The way the book showed her depression felt real and well transported. She got into my feels, I wanted to hug her and I could understand where she was coming from despite having a different view on things. I also enjoyed her first interaction with Colin.

I didn't think I'd ever relate as much to a character as I do to Lily Reyes. She's the sweetest and realest person I ever truly read about. Her inner monologue portrayed her depression amazingly, as so did the letters she wrote. Her thoughts were everywhere, jumping from one to the other which I think is pretty realistic for an over-thinker and depressed person. i swear to god we need to return to the 1950s and read good classical books bc im so tired of bad comperary books trying to make money off of random tropes authors think we like How Lily describes depression, how her mood varies from semingly okay to just wanting to die in the span of a few sentences in her journal is so accurate. I am happy it shows how bad depression can get without a "reason", because I think that it is so rarely shown but so common. This book was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I ate up every damn second of it. It made me laugh and cry all at the same time. I thought so too. Thought maybe...just maybe, this might be a 5⭐ read if it just gets a little bit deeper, digs deeper into Lily and Colin.literally aaron is also such a weird character. like how are all of them static characters with such a flux-y plot ??? bffr joelina falk i also don’t understand how aaron knew the whole time but acted like he didn’t? that was meant to be a plot twist but it was just stupid because no one ever did anything about that information. it didn’t make any sort of sense😭 worlds worst book award!! did literally ANYONE read over this before it was published?? the gross misuse of the oxford comma and the general juvenile sense you got from the writing, if you told me a 10 year old produced this i would believe you. overall, horrifically written. However, the amount of people who knew how bad she was or suspected, and not acted at all to do anything. The younger people I get more, because they are trying to be loyal and not make things worse, but even the older adults who suspected did nothing. And despite showing how much Collin struggled with his brother's suicide and felt he should have done something to stop it, he doesn't do anything to stop Lily. He romanticized that his love would save her, and thats very dangerous.

the fmc’s personality changed almost drastically in between. i thought her outlook would change steadily, slowly, so readers could follow along without getting confused, but it didn’t. But in my opinion, the whole story stays on the surface...no iceberg that has so much more you can't see right away. I was hooked at the beginning but the book lost me inbetween.

also this is irrelevant but if a stranger told me they loved me after spending seven days together i would actually throw up and laugh in their face other than all of that, almost all the characters were vanilla and boring and done before. i almost dnf’d, but I’ve dnf’d three books in my life, and i tried not to give up on this one. the writing style. it written like wattpad. the author apparently could not say “I’ll”. she used its full form — “I will” — all the time. which was so off-putting and annoying. suffice it to say, the dialogue was flat.