I don't want to give anything away, so I won't go into plot specifics, but it goes way below surface level and discusses a myriad of issues and concerns that people deal with on the journey through infertility (or just fertility issues in general). All the insensitive comments of well meaning people, the guilty internal struggle when everyone around you is having babies, the expense that comes along with pricey fertility treatments that may or may not work, and the mental health decline as you pull out of yourself and get lost in a downward spiral of depression and self-deprecation is all touched on. Before you shake your angry fist and scream "But what about adoption!", don't worry, that's discussed as well. I found myself crying throughout almost the entire book, but especially during those moments that felt carved from my very being and placed into Quinn and Graham's narrative. I remember those nights when Mr. Humphrey (bless him, he really is the best) would hold me close and tell me that I was enough and that he wouldn't give up on us. That moment in the story where the old man tells Quinn that the secret to a long happy marriage is for both spouses to never give up at the same time is SO true, and it broke me to read that after living it. Warning: My thoughts are a mess which means this review will be a mess. Please proceed with caution. Quinn and Graham’s perfect love is threatened by their imperfect marriage. The memories, mistakes, and secrets that they have built up over the years are now tearing them apart. The one thing that could save them might also be the very thing that pushes their marriage beyond the point of repair. One day, I will have read every single Colleen Hoover book and I will be…hm, what word am I trying to think of? Whatever it is, it matters. We immediately understand that this is a woman who wants to have a child desperately but can’t and it’s slowly tearing her on the inside that she can’t and is barely holding on. Quinn’s POV benefited a lot from Hoover’s sparse but emotional prose which captured Quinn’s pain so well.

I really am a decent guy. But I'm also extremely attracted to you and want to see you naked again.'And that ending? Ehhh. It wasn’t terrible, but it wasn’t fleshed out either. It felt very rushed. They opened the box, they cried, and everything just smoothed itself out. However, it was worth mentioning that they apologized to each other and renewed their commitment. But overall, it felt, I don’t know, underwhelming and rushed after all that build up. Unfortunately, the past and present storytelling ruined the momentum for me. I hated it. Just when the story starts to get really interesting, you get pulled into another scene from the past and it became so frustrating! It was like Ugly Love all over again! Hidden behind Quinn’s forced smiles are feelings of inadequacy, self-loathing and despair. Rather than express those feelings, she keeps them bottled up. Quinn and Graham’s love story starts out in an unconventional way. From the moment they met, to when they married, to now, 7 years after that, it’s apparent that fate put them together. They are still just as much in love now as they were in the beginning, but things out of their control has changed things for them. Life has a way of doing that. Sometimes love isn’t enough, but sometimes, it is.

He stares at me a moment, contemplating my odd train of thought. “ Sasha is ugly. You have nothing to worry about.” Graham, on the other hand, was much harder for me to fall for. And even though some of his actions were really beautiful and selfless, I never fully loved him because some of his other actions were so nasty and selfish. And I get it, we are all human, we all make mistakes and do bad things sometimes, but his mistakes just prevented me from ever rooting for him. Graham does some really abusive stuff in this book that is never told like it’s abuse, too. I clear my throat and try to hide my fear, even though the guy looks harmless. But I guess evil doesn’t have a telling exterior, so it’s hard to judge. “My fiancé lives here. He’s inside,” I lie. There’s a sadness about him. Not one related to our current situation. Something deeper... like it’s embedded in him. I’ve met people who smile with their eyes, but he frowns with his.There have been a handful of times where I’d stare at the cover, read the blurb over a few times, take a screenshot of the cover, look at a few other books that I still probably haven’t gotten to, take a screenshot of those books and…well, you get the idea. After narrowing it down I’d choose one, but it was never All Your Perfects . I mean, until now. A love story between writer and muse, November 9 follows Fallon, a girl with a plan to move across the country, who meets Ben, an aspiring novelist. The pair spends Fallon’s last day in L.A. together and vow to return to each other every year on, you guessed it, November 9. Sasha?” I say her name incredulously, then I repeat her name, putting emphasis on the sha. “Sasha. That explains a lot.” Colleen has written about a lot of heavy things, but I think this one may have hit the hardest for me. I'm not really sure why, because I've never felt the way Quinn does, nor do I think it would be crippling for me to not have a family of my own one day, but I felt every second of her pain. So deeply. I had to put this book do

Did she blame him for her miscarriage? No. She rather told him it’s not his fault. Did he return the courtesy and told her HIS cheating was not her fault? No. He blamed her for HIS weakness. Everything suddenly feels heavier with that comment. I don’t want to cry but I know this is all going to hit me any minute now. I met Ethan right after I started college and we’ve been together four years now. That’s a lot to lose in one moment. And even though I know it’s over, I don’t want to confront him. I just want to walk away and be done with him. I don’t want to need closure or even an explanation, but I’m scared I’ll need both of those things when I’m alone tonight.Colleen Hoover is one of my favorite authors. Not many can evoke the kind of emotion she does with each and every book. All Your Perfects may be her most emotional one yet, at least for me it was. The chapters of the novel that detail the excitement of Quinn and Graham’s new relationship and growing love are alternated with chapters that describe what their relationship looks like seven years later. Quinn is so hurt by not being able to have a child that she does not even want to make love to Graham. Making love gives her hope she might receive a miracle, but the hope is dashed each month when her period starts.